Thursday, May 17, 2012

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Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Wooohoooo!!  Yesterday I got on the scale and I finally lost the last 3.7 lbs to bring me 100 lbs lost!  Amazing, just amazing!  I'm so psyched and amazed that I've now lost 100 lbs!  

I started this journey back on July 15th, 2011.  What caused me to do this?  Lifting a 50 lb feed bag and injuring my back.  I was flat on my back for 2 weeks, where I had pulled all the muscles.  I was sick & tired of being sick & tired!  This propelled me onto this wonderful journey that I'm on now!

As you know, I had my RNY on February 20, 2012.  Yes, I had complications, yes I spent 5 days in ICU trying to recover, yes I had numerous blood transfusions.  Would I do it all over again?  YES! In a heartbeat!

I started this journey at 329.  Yesterday I was 229, today I'm 228, so I've lost another pound!  Yes, I'm still having problems with some foods, so I'll stick with the basics until I'm able to do better.  Protein shakes, greek yogurt, Babybel cheese, pudding with added protein powder in it to boost protein.  I can eat a half a Bagel Thin grilled with cheese on it too.  Sometimes I can tolerate fish, sometimes I can't.  Day by day is what I have to do and what I will do.  

I took my waist and chest measurements today.  I'll do the rest later when Steven can help me.  But my waist has gone from 65 inches to 50 inches.  My chest has gone from 56 inches to 44 inches.  This is just amazing and sometimes overwhelming to me.  I was remembering this morning that after I had little Cliff, I was 228 lbs.   Cliff is going to be 29 years old this year.  So its been 29 years since I've been this weight!  29 years I've been carrying all this excess weight around.  It's really sad if you think about it.  I missed out on so much being as heavy as I was.  

But today is a new day!  I refuse to dwell about what might have been, just what will be!!  So here's to today, a whole new day in my whole new life!!  And what a great life its going to be!!

Friday, April 13, 2012

Plotting along

Well I'm at Week 7 and after a 3 1/2 week plateau, things are finally moving again.  I've lost 6 lbs so far this week, thank goodness!  I was really losing faith and wondering why I had this surgery in the first place.  A 3 1/2 week plateau of losing and gaining the same pound is absolutely maddening.  

I've pretty much gone back to basics and have to admit that I think Steven is right.  I think I tried to do too much too fast and I've been getting the foamies or having to take some papaya enzyme quite a bit.  

I'm starting over with softer foods and will take my time from now on.  I wanted to try a little bit of everything and my pouch was screaming at me that it didn't like it one little bit!!  Okay, okay I'm listening now!!  

So shakes or greek non-fat yogurt for breakfast, a cheese stick or something similar for lunch and then mostly fish for dinner.  At least I know I can keep this stuff down.  

I'm almost down 100 lbs since I started all this.  It's just amazing to me that I've lost almost a whole person!!  

I'm preparing for my trip to NY and have found some new things that I'll be taking with me.  I'm in love with Babybel cheese.  50 calories with 6 grams of protein for each one.  Pretty good!!  I also have some Pure Protein bars.  20 grams of protein for each one.  When I'm feeling as though I need something to "snack" on, these are a good choice.  

Well, I'm headed outside to get some farm chores done.  I'm adding a ticker to my blog so I can track how I'm doing.  

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Thursday, April 5, 2012

Plateaus suck!

I'm so frustrated!  I know its normal to hit a plateau but I'm now on my 3rd week of one.  I'm losing and gaining the same pound every time I get on the scale and there are times I just want to cry.  I was doing better losing weight before I had the surgery.  I've lost almost nothing since I had my surgery. 

My head is telling me this is all normal but I feel like a failure.  Nothing tastes good to me any more.  Things are so different than they were even 3 weeks ago.  I no longer am enthusiastic about my WLS.  

I can't do much exercising because I broke my ribs on Sunday but even still, you think something would give.  I guess maybe I'm getting into a depression.  I was hoping to be down to 220 by the time I left to go to NY on May 5th.  That's definitely not going to happen.  I'm even dreading going to NY now.  

What a head game this weight loss is.  I guess all I can do it keep on keeping on and hope for the best.  To be in a stall for 3 weeks is so damn depressing.  I just want to cry.  :(

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

One Month Anniversary of My Surgery!!

Well, its been one month ago today since I had my surgery.  Wow how things have changed in a month!  I'm down to 236 lbs, feeling pretty good most of the time, and able to eat some real food without too much trouble.

A lot of my clothing is way too big and falling off.  I was in Food Lion two days ago and had on a pair of my favorite shorts.  All the sudden I felt them sliding down my butt! Yikes! Of course it didn't help that I had my cell phone in my pocket that was dragging them down as well.  

Guess its time to get rid of those shorts.  Darn they were comfortable!  I took my measurements the other day because I seem to be in a bit of a stall.  My waist has gone from a 65 to a 51.  My bust has gone from a 58 to a 46.  Its just amazing!

I look at myself in the mirror and I can't see that I've lost almost 100 lbs since July.  Every one else sees it.  I guess I have body dysmorphia.  One day I'll be able to see the "real" me in the mirror, I suppose.  

For now, I'm just glad to be able to be healthy and happy.  I'm down to only one med, my nighttime maintenance of insulin.  I'm not taking much and it may be DC'd at my doctor's appointment on Thursday.  We'll see!

Here's to health!!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Down, down, down!!

Feeling pretty good today, still have gastric distress but I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday.  I'm living on Imodium and Fibercon tablets.  YUCK!

My weight is slowly going down and I'm down to 237 this morning!  Steven took some pictures of me yesterday and although I know that I'm losing weight (I started at 329), I have a hard time seeing it in pictures.  I know its body dysmorphia and I'll have to deal with it.

I'm doing pretty well eating, although yesterday I again ate too quickly and up came everything I had attempted to eat.  My pouch didn't feel good the rest of the evening and I went to bed early.  I had a protein shake afterwards but I still didn't feel all that well.  My blood sugar was even high, 187 when I went to bed.  That concerned both Steven and I but its down to 127 this morning.  I guess my body's under stress with this gastric distress.

Its raining on and off so I don't know if I'll be going outside today.  I guess I'll use my treadmill and get some exercise in.  

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Here I am...

I'm a bit over 3 weeks out and I'm losing about a pound a day.  I'm pretty psyched about it.  I have lots of energy and actually don't even feel as though I've had the surgery.  I'm sleeping better, eating well, making sure I'm getting between 60 & 80 grams of protein a day.  

I've had almost no problems with food except I learned what not to do.  Two days ago, I grabbed 1 oz of deli ham and sat down to eat it mindlessly.  Not a smart thing to do at all!  I got the foamies and then it felt like I had a rock in my pouch!  Not a good feeling at all!  

So I'm working on slowing down while I'm eating and paying more attention.  

Yesterday and today I've had a problem with diarrhea.  Not sure where the heck it came from but it's not fun at all!  So I have to stick close to home.  Tried some Imodium pills but they're not working so I guess I need to get some liquid.  Fun fun...not!

Overall I'm feeling really well and have been getting lots of planting in.  Life is good!!