Monday, October 17, 2011

Sore, hurting, and in pain!

Well I guess I overdid it yesterday.  By last night my feet were on fire the second I took my shoes off.  The neuropathy in my feet was reminding me that I'm not used to doing so much walking, dancing, climbing as I did yesterday.  Point made and I'll be working on that one.  

This morning I woke up to excruciating pain.  I thought at first it was my hip but I realize now its not the hip at all, its the upper thigh muscle.  And man oh man is it screaming at me...LOUDLY.  Every single time I move, its saying, "WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME?!" 

So I laid low today, didn't do too much and I'm hoping to wake up feeling better tomorrow.  I don't want to be down too long.  I want to get back up on the horse so to speak and get moving! 

I also didn't eat much today.  Just a protein shake, some cottage cheese and a sugar free popsicle.  I'm not hungry at all and I had to force myself to eat what I did. 

Can't wait for my appointment with Dr. Abusera on Thursday so I can get this stuff moving!  I hope he has my letter written.  If not I'm NOT going to be happy!  

Anyway, I'm headed to bed.  I just wrapped a couple dozen eggs and I'm bushed!  

Sunday, October 16, 2011

It'a a great Sunday!

Great day! Slept in this morning, felt so good.  Got up, checked my blood sugar. It was 145. Not bad. Better than the 200's that it had been, even with the insulin! Made a chocolate protein shake. YUM! Drank that and decided that I wanted to go for a walk.  

We drove into town and walked in the small town park. Dillon kept stopping to tie his shoe. (One day, I swear he WILL learn to tie his shoes correctly! LOL) I took a few pictures with my phone and we walked.  There was this older couple there, I would say mid to late 70's that was walking too. They soon passed me.  I was a bit disgruntled and blamed Dillon but it wasn't him. It was ME. 

I'm terribly out of shape and I know this about myself.  I haven't regularly exercised in years.  I'm over 250 lbs and I need to accept the fact that I have to take things slowly.  I need to work at my own pace and not try to compete with others.  Something I need to remind myself. 

I am a unique individual and nothing I do is going to be like anyone else. I just need to keep on keeping on and I'm hit my goal! Keep my eye on the prize.  The prize is a healthier ME!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Looking & feeling GREAT!

Still haven't had my surgery but I'm plugging along. All potatoes, rice, pasta, breads have been cut from my diet as well as diet coke and my seltzer water. Those were the two hardest to get rid of. It's been 3 weeks since I've had a soda and I feel great! I don't even crave one and that makes me feel even better!

I'm down the 10% that I wanted to lose beforehand and I'm just going to keep on losing until I have my surgery. 

Last night I tried on some old bras and shirts that I haven't been able to wear in years and years.  I was so shocked that they fit! A few were even too big!  I got this huge smile on my face.  I came out "modeling" for Steven.  He whistled and told me that I'm looking good.  THAT made me cry! 

Steven is giving me such great support and so many of my friends like Karen, Christine, Laura, Nan, Sherry, and so many more.  Too many to list here.  I wouldn't be able to do this without the support of so many of my wonderful friends that I have.  The one person who's support I wish I had is my daughter but she's cut herself off from my life for whatever imagined reason again.  So be it.  But it would be nice to have her cheering in my corner.  I'm not going to let it get me down.  She told me that she no longer wants me in her life and I'm not going to persue it. 

Anyway, happier things...I've been drinking one or two protein shakes a day. It all depends on my mood for the day.  I've been experimenting with flavors and such. Yesterday, I added a teaspoon of peanut butter to my chocolate shake.  Oh to die for! It was like I was eating a Reese's peanut butter cup.  Adding frozen strawberries and bananas to the strawberry shake. Lowfat whipped cream to the cappuccino protein shake.  Yummm!  I'm loving it!  And losing weight to boot! Who knew it could be this good?!?!

I have a Drs appointment next week for my last requirement, my danged pap smear.  Hopefully Dr. Abusera has my letter ready to go to my surgeon or else I'm going to scream.  I guess I need to get on the ball and get working on my letter as well. Maybe as soon as I get done with this journal entry. Maybe I can get my surgery done in November, with any luck?