Saturday, July 16, 2011

Realizations kicking in

This morning, after I got up, I needed to get some chicks out of the cabinet incubator.  Well they had gotten out of their drawer and were on the floor of it.  That means that I needed to get on my hands & knees and reach deep inside with a coat hanger to get the ones way in the back.  

Getting down there was no problem, but one of the little buggers just didn't want to come to the front!  So I'm reaching and reaching.  In the meantime, I'm sweating, I'm lightheaded, getting dizzy, afraid I'm going to fall on my face all while trying to get just one of them.  I almost closed the darn thing and said "the hell with it", but knew I couldn't.  

I finally reached one more time with the coat hanger, got him inside it and pulled him forward.  When I stood up, everything was swimming.  I needed to sit on the bed for a few moments because I thought I was going to pass out.

It shouldn't be like this!  If I was thinner, more nimble, I wouldn't have this problem.  

Wednesday, July 13, 2011


Well I just got off the phone with the place that does the WLS informational sessions.  I have an appointment tomorrow at 4:45pm!

I'm so excited and psyched and and and....LOL  my whole body is absolutely shaking with excitement!!

This is the beginning of a whole new journey for me!  And I'm loving every single minute of it.  Keeping my eye on the prize and the prize for me is a whole new healthy Laurie.  It's not about looking good.  Nope.  Its about feeling good and being healthy! 

I want to throw away those insulin needles, I want to toss away those pills!  I want to dance, dance, dance!  Goddess knows I don't want to be a size 2 or even a size 10.  I just want to be healthier!!  

I want to be able to be outside working side by side with Steven and not sick in bed.  I don't want to have to worry about my blood sugar going through the roof all the time.  I want to ENJOY life!!  And not just live!  

Look out world, here I come!!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Today's events...uneventful!

Well I thought that I would get farther today than I did, but that's okay!  I still have a positive attitude and will continue to move forward.  

I called the doctors office and have an appointment with Dr. Diaz on July 28th.  I was hoping something sooner but in the meantime I can continue to do research.  

The hospital where I will have my surgery is Johnson City Medical Center and they have a great reputation!!

I'm going to go for a free seminar while I'm waiting for my doctors appointment.  Might as well be pro-active!!

I'm feeling really good today and Steven is being supportive.  I can't do this without him so I'm glad he's pulling for me!  

Well time to get some things done.  Oh, I got on the Wii today.  I'm 296.  So this will be my starting weight!  Bye for now!!!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

The Day Before I Begin My Journey

So I've spent the better part of a week thinking about this.  Of course, I had decided long ago I was going to have WLS, then my accident happened and well things got so complicated.  Now here I am, 6 years later.  I'm 6 years older, my health is declining even more and I have to do something NOW!

I'm a Type 2 diabetic on Lantus Solostar-31 units at night; Humalog-sliding scale; Actos, and Metformin-1000 mgs twice a day.  Still no control over my diabetes.  Since my accident, my depression has gotten worse, my back hurts, my hip hurts, my joints hurt.

My last weight was 298,  I'm only 5'4" tall.

So it's time to call my doctors and start making decisions.  Tomorrow is the day that I call and make an appointment to start discussing Gastric Bypass Surgery.  I know that its only a tool. One that I have to use wisely but its one that will help me to lose this weight and start the journey on the next phase of my life.  I don't have alot of support here and that scares me but I have to do it for ME!

Tammy had it done a year ago and I've seen all the mistakes she's made.  I don't want to do that.  She doesn't eat, she lives on DD coffee.  She's had all kinds of problems and she ignores them.  When I try to explain, I'm interfering in her life.  So, I'm going to try to do everything I'm supposed to do, right.

I'm not perfect, I'll stumble and fall but I can pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again!

Today is the last day of my old life.  My journey towards my NEW LIFE begins tomorrow!  Wish me luck!